Judgement

There are some things in this world that I don't understand. Some of those things I could care less about. Like politics and theatre and whatnot. But other things, I can't help but wonder about. Where did we come from? Why are we here? Can you really buy pizza over eBay?

But what I'm most curious about in this world is why people feel the need to ridicule and judge people because of their beliefs or their personality or how they function or their likes and dislikes. I makes no sense to me whatsoever.

I've addressed this topic in my blog before, and I just had a conversation with my good friend Alexis over Facebook (and Vicki earlier today), I think it's appropriate to dedicate a blog entry to it. It's a pretty serious topic, in my mind.

But before I continue, I'm not talking about anyone specifically. I'm talking about people in general. So please don't take offense to what I'm about to say. I hope you all read this and learn something.

But I digress. Judging people. Prejudice, if you will. The concept never ceases to amaze me.

I'd like to first talk about the victims of judgement. Why the hell should you care what other people think? Why should you hide a part of you because of the fear of how society will look at you? If you feel a certain way, or believe in something, or like something, or hate something, you should share it with the world! What's the point in hiding it? You're only lying to yourself and those around you.

I like Twilight. I like Harry Potter. I like Hannah Montana. I like kids shows. I like Dora the Explorer and Blue Clues. I only watch cartoons. I hate politics and think politicians are a bunch of liars. If I had to chose a side, I suppose that I'd be a Democrat. I'm a Christian. I believe in God and Jesus and that there's a heaven and a hell. I believe that love should be for everyone, and that everyone has the right to love whoever they want to. I believe that America is not as free as everyone thinks. 

These are just some of the things that I feel and express on a daily basis. And I find it shocking that people take the time and energy to say mean things and treat me differently just because of that. People all think differently. We behave differently. We like different things. If we were all the same and conformed to what society wants us to be, we'd all be like Barbie and Ken dolls stashed away in a drawer *totally didn't steal that from Tyler*

If you like something, awesome! Tell people! If they judge you because of that, maybe you should go hang out with different people. Friends and people of the human race should like each other for who they are. Being mean to someone because of that is just wrong. You strip away their independence and what makes them human.

So the next time you see someone cheering for McCain, gushing over the latest Twilight movie update, singing a Miley Cyrus song, telling someone how much they love Brittany Spears, sharing their love of Christ, or even wearing a Barney T-shirt, think twice about what's going on inside of your brain. Everyone has their own opinion, that's fine. Sharing that opinion is fine. But ridiculing someone else for having and sharing their opinion is not.

Shame on you.

Sayonara~

Quote: "It's like a funky mohawk disaster!" ~ me in film production (we were looking at old Dreyfoos yearbook and this kid had the most epic fail mohawk I've ever seen)

Song: "Dream" by DHT (this song talks about everything that's wrong in the world and how humans are screwing it up little by little. Thought it was appropriate)

The Quest for Ouran

She leaped out of the car, grabbing her mom's hand and bounding across the street: looking both ways before crossing, of course. Her mother lagged behind, not sharing in the excitement. The anticipation. She waited outside of the automatic doors, waiting for them to whoosh open and allow her into paradise. Every movement was just too slow.

Finally they opened. Everything was a blur. She raced down the aisles to her destination. It was so close. She could feel it. Success! She skimmed through the titles of the movies in front of her. Alphabetical order. A, B, C, D.....O! Wait. Where was it? It wasn't there. There had to be a mistake.

In the corner of her eye was an angel wearing a blue polo shirt. She raced down the aisle towards him. Hope flooded through her veins. 

And then he was gone. Another desperate soul had taken him away. 

Waiting.

Waiting.

Waiting. 

Too much waiting. She ran throughout paradise, searching for the angel in blue. In the tiniest corner, she found him. She told him her quest and he happily agreed to assist her. He went to the back to speak to the god of that realm. 

Waiting. 

Waiting. 

MORE WAITING.

Here he comes! He's holding something! Could it be? Could it really be?!

YES! The Holy Grail! The fruits of her labor! The object of her being. She raised it above her head in triumph and dragged her mother to the front so that her treasure could be rightfully hers.

~~~~~

So that was the quest for Ouran, ladies and gents. My epic battle through Best Buy to acquire the DVD that I've been waiting 2 years to be released. 

Ouran High School Host Club

ITS MIIIIINE! ALLLL MMIIIIIIINNNEEE MWAHAHAHAHA!

But alas, I cannot watch it. At least not tonight. But I will! I WWWWWIIIIILLLLLL HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

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IN OTHER NEWS, Calculus hates me. Optimization? Wtf is that? I don't get it. 

Oh! Halloween is coming up! I'm going to be GIR from Invader Zim, for those of you who don't already know. If you don't know who that is, you're a poopnose. Go die. 

My costume is almost ready. I just need to add some teeny adjustments. I love Halloween! It's my 2nd favorite holiday! My 1st is Christmas, of course. I want to go trick-or-treating, but the friend I usually go with is going to be out of town. Epic fail. Oh well, I was invited to two parties. I dunno which I can go to though...epic fail.

Everyone get your costumes together! If you don't wear a costume, you shall be shunned.

I mean, come on, who DOESN'T dress up on Halloween? That's the whole point. To be someone , or something, that you aren't for one day :D IT'S FUN~

SAYONARA~

Quote: "Girls should never refer to themselves as a dude! MAMA!!!! Haruhi's using those dirty boy words again!" ~Tamaki from Ouran High School Host Club (can you tell that I love this series?)

Song: Bokura no Love Style ~Hikaru and Kaoru Hitachiin from Ouran High School Host Club (lol fail, but this is a really cute song. The lyrics are kinda mean though, but it's the twins, come on!)

Epic Failure

So I got inducted into the National Honor Society today.

EPIC

FAAAAAAIIIIILLLLL

The inductees were supposed to be called to come to wherever the heck we were supposed to meet over the intercom. Right?

Wrong.

If I hadn't called my mom and asked her what was going on, I would have missed it. I got there just in time. I have no idea how everyone else knew to just go without the announcement...

But before I left, my friend Al was upset because he was told exisiting members couldn't come.

Another epic fail.

They were. Apparently they were told not to come, which was false. None of the existing members (or very few) came so it screwed up the order of peoplez.

The actual auditorium had like, what, two people in it? An exaggeration, but still. It was pretty empty in there. And random kids were there that weren't being inducted;;; Not that that wasn't nice; lots of my friends were there. But it was kinda epic fail

I thought the guest speaker was kinda cool. Until he insulted my art area by saying that films like Spiderman, etc. that are "popular" isn't art. Okay, so people spend YEARS creating scripts, storyboards, and countless hours slaving over editing on those things because it's not ART. Film is art, no matter what label you put on it.

AFTERWARDS, there was a giant mob of people trying to get food at this teeny tiny little table. Fail.

And apparently my mother was the first one there, and they hadn't even marked where the students being inducted were supposed to sit. Fail.

It was a pretty nice ceremony, but loaded with epic failures left and right. I blame poor planning.

But then I went to Books-A-Million afterwards and got a manga and a magazine, so it's all good >:3

EDIT: The people who put the pictures in Anime Insider don't know how to crop/cut a picture properly in Photoshop. It's really not that difficult.

Sayonara~ 

Quote: "Your prince is out there somewhere, waiting for his princess" ~my mommy (this was such an adorable thing that my mom told me after I was crying over a certain something)

Song: "Hare Hare Yukai" ~from the Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya (I lurve this song. And the dance is pretty pwnage too! Check it out!)

Broken Heart, the Beach, and Random Hippie Dudes

So I only got 2 people's feedback from my last post. And nothing has changed....thanks guys. Appreciate it.

It's come to my attention that some people are...frustrated that I spend so much time with a certain person. I don't think you have to worry about that anymore, my friend. He's screwed up so many times, there's no way he could feel the same way about me that I feel about him.

So I had a semi-sucky day on Friday. I was supposed to go to Cityplace with said person, but he cancelled on me for like the 5th time. Epic fail.

Not so much though. I stayed after school with Lela, the most awesome person in the world. I went to Cheeburger Cheeburger with her and Tyler. They have this amazing quest to try every milkshake flavor in the store. So I helped. I'm gonna get mono or something, but w/e. You guys know that I'm a germ freak. But I didn't really care at the time :3 We were having super happy fun time.

So then we went back to school and hung out for a a while. Then Tyler left. So Lela suggested going to the beach. Little did I know that the beach was like 5904375483963 miles away. It was a nice walk though, even though my feet were killing me by the time we got back. 

So while we were on our little adventure, we bumped into the most amazing man I have ever met. He was this hippie dude who stopped Lela because she's just that amazing. He told us how he's met all of these awesome people and done so much cool stuff with his life. It was really inspiring how someone like that really exists. He's just one of those weird, artistic weirdos that the world doesn't understand. He really spoke to me :D You never know who you're going to see on the sidewalk! I wish I'd taken a picture of him...oh well...

So we got to the beach and it was GORGEOUS. We saw a cruise ship and it was all lit up and it was sooo pretty! We could even see the city lights from there! I never realized how beautiful the beach looks at night. The water looks so dark and pretty! Lela played around in the waves and I did too near the end. We couldn't stay for very long, but it was nice. So we ran back as fast as we could, cuz our mothers were waiting all the way back at Cityplace. The bridge was like a painting at night. All of the colors blended in with each other and the lights were so brilliant. Wow.

So I got in the car, drenched with sweat, and got some crap from my mother. Which wasn't so bad cuz I cried about my suckish morning and she was all oh nooooes it's okay. So it's all good. Cept not really.

Hope you enjoyed my epic story of epic proportions! :D

Quote: "In essence, it's as though I am the one protecting her. Not you." ~ Kaname Kuran (OMG WHY KANAME?! WHY DID YOU HAVE TO SAY "IN ESSENCE"?!)

Song: "Vampire Club" ~Voltaire (Best. Song. EVAR.)

Things that I Need to Get Off My Chest (very important post)

Hello everyone! First off let me say that my birthday was Sept. 7th! I'm officially 17! I keep thinking I'm 16; I don't feel any different! It's strange. Now I can get into R-rated movies and stuff and I'm older than everyone else in my grade. Kinda scary. But cool.

Anyway, down to more important things. I've been meaning to talk about this stuff for a long time, but I haven't known how to express it. So thank you Shayna, again, for providing me with something to steal. She listed things that make her 'sad' in her last blog post, so I'm going to use that and build off of it. This is very important to those of you who I hang out with often, because a lot of it pertains to you. I've mentioned some of the things listed here in real life, but no one takes me seriously and I'm sick of being pushed around and stepped on. The pen (keyboard) is mightier than the sword. Hopefully, that will prove true here.

~Stefanie's Super Dee Dooper Important List of Concerns and Nunus~

1. Cursing and foul language in general

Everyone thinks I'm cute and adorable and innocent because I don't curse, but I have a reason for it. I believe that using language like that is unnecessary and completely disrespectful. I see no reason to use words like that. There are plenty of other words that you can use that mean the same thing and are more appropriate. I don't curse in public at all because I don't think it's very nice to say words like that in front of people. Don't get me wrong, I do curse when I'm alone and by myself. Not often, but I do. And I do understand that things slip out every once and a while, it happens to everyone. But to use words like that in everyday conversation and not even think about it...I don't see how people do it. 

I hate cursing and I bring it to the attention of people so that they don't use language that offends me around me. I can't stop the world from cursing, it just can't be done. But I can bring it to the attention of the people who care about me. But strangely...

I had a friend say to me once that she doesn't curse in front of adults and authority figures because it's disrespectful.

....what?

Do I not deserve this same respect? Am I not worthy of it or something? Do friends not deserve the respect that adults get? I don't get it.

I've also heard people tell me that they can't help it when they curse like this around their friends. Everyone can control their speech. It's not that hard. When you get into the real world, language like that is not acceptable and it's not acceptable in my ears.

I just don't understand...is it really that hard to respect someone?

2. When people call other people "hot"

It sounds trashy. I hate it. There's other words you can use to describe someone.

3. Hypocrites

I'll refer to a specific example for this one. One day someone came over to our little lunch group and said that someone was hot (refer to number 2). I voiced my opinion that I didn't like the use of that word and I had someone next to me say something about freedom of speech and things like that, visibly frustrated with what I had to say.

Now...I had said a word around that same friend many months prior to this. And she had a problem with, because she thought it wasn't very nice. She listed alternative words for it and I honored her feelings and stored that word into my memory banks so that I would never say it around her again.

.....is there something wrong with this picture? I'm expected to change what I say, but people won't do the same for me? Hm...

4. People who leave one or more people out of a conversation

This is another specific example. This might offend some of the people who read this, but I really need to talk about this. I've brought it up at school several times, but no one seems to listen to me or take me seriously. It's been bothering me for a very long time and I want people to listen to my side of the story.

Here goes...

So I go to an art school, right? And there's lots of different art areas, like theatre, music, visual arts, communications, vocal, dance, la dee da da. I'm a communications major and probably 95% of my friends are theatre majors. Why? I have no idea. That's just how it is. So going to an art school, you'd except that people talk about their art areas, right? Especially when they share the same art area. It's nice to talk about what you're interested in. 

So naturally, my theatre major friends are all friends and they talk about their art area. Their teachers, their classes, performances, homework, etc. etc. They talk about that kinda stuff.

....a lot.

So when you're eating lunch with about 5 other people who are all talking about something that you're not knowledgeable or interested in, you start to feel really left out. With 2, going on 3, years of that kinda stuff, you start to feel REALLY left out. 

Don't get me wrong, I'm so happy that my friends love their major that much. I don't have that much dedication and love for mine. I'd never be able to do half the stuff that they do. 

But it's just that even if I'm surrounded by people, I still feel like I'm alone. I remember one time I was at a sleepover and all of the people there were theatre majors except for me. They started talking about theatre stuff and I just sat there smiling, waiting for the topic to change. After a while, I almost fell asleep. I was finally acknowledged and they tried to change the subject so that I could participate. Tried.

Stuff like that seems to happen a lot, with all of my friends and with different topics. I always try to include people in my conversation if I'm in a group. If I see someone is left out, I usually try to change the subject so that they're included too. I just wish people would notice me too and include me too, so I'm not always stuck behind a barrier.

That was the hardest thing that I needed to say, and I hope something in their stuck.

5. People who don't know when to keep their mouth shut

Ever heard of the phrase "If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all"? Pretty simple concept, right? Apparently not.

Some people that I know don't realize that what comes out of their mouths affects other people around them, either negatively or positively. It just doesn't make sense to me. Some of the stuff that these people say make me think "Why would you even say that?". I'll give an example. One time my friend was pretty upset and was kinda snapping at people. People get upset, it's a natural emotion. Just leave that person alone and don't get on their bad side and they'll calm down. My other friend finds it appropriate to say "Are you PMSing?". 

What the heck, man. That's not what you say to someone who's upset. Think about what you say before you say it. 

6. People who say "I'm not being mean. I'm just brutally honest".

Most likely, what you just said/did was mean to the person you're talking to. It relates to number 5. Think about what you say before you say it. You can be nice and still be honest.

7. People that tuck their shirts in

It looks dumb. Take your shirt out.

8. Purses for backpacks

Use a backpack or a bag. Not a purse. This isn't a fashion contest.

9. "OMG EWWW YOU LIKE HANNAH MONTANA/JONAS BROTHERS/DISNEY CHANNEL/*INSERT OTHER THING HERE THAT'S NOT POPULARLY ACCEPTABLE FOR A 17-YEAR-OLD*?!?!!"

Yes, shut up. Lots of people do, actually.

10. People that feel the need to stop/slow down right in the middle of the hallway for no apparent reason

You might not have somewhere to go, but I do. Move.

11. Skeletons

They scare me. Yes, I know I have one inside of me. Stop reminding me.

12. Preps

Ew. Get a life.

13. Improper usage or cellphones

Driving, texting during class, obnoxiously talking in a store, during a movie, in the hallway (slows down traffic), etc. etc. Why do you need to talk that badly? Shut up and finish whatever you're doing or wait until after class/the movie. Or take it outside. I don't need to hear your conversation.

14. "I gotta go pee"

I don't need to know what you're gonna do in there. Just go.

15. Mispronunciation of the word "often"

The t is silent. It's in the dictionary.

16. Repetition

I heard you the first time.

17. Disliking something when you've never watched/seen/etc. it before

You have no right to dislike it. Give it a chance before you make an opinion.

I can't think of anything else and I'm sick of putting this off. Please read this and understand where I come from. I love you all :D

Quote: "Sexual harassment?" from my English book, talking about two six-year-olds that kissed.

Song: "Shissou" by Vic Mignogna. Okay, he didn't write he, but he translated it into English and he did an amazing job with it. Check it out!

The Real Introduction

I didn't really introduce myself in my last post! Silly me! You're probably all sitting there like wtf is this girl talking about?! 

So my name is Stefanie! Hello there! Nice to meet you! I'm 16 years old and I'm turning 17 next week! That's really scary to think about...ugh. Seventeen....so much closer to eighteen. And college. And life. NOOOOOOOO!

Ah sorry. Life just attacked me. Anyway. I go to the best school in the ENTIRE world. I'm not going to tell you what it is, because there's crazy stalker people out there who would hunt me down and whatnot. So I'll just tell you that it's an art school and it's so amazing that you can't even fathom it. You can't. It's not possible. Don't try. You'll explode.

Anyways....I plan on going into film and graphic/web design when I'm older. It's really fun! Stressful, but fun. 

What else may I share about the wonderful life of Stefanie? Well, I love anime :) Is that something? Yes, it is. (I'm talking to myself, is that weird?) Anime is like...my life. Seriously. Probably even more than film and stuff. I read manga all the time, I watch anime every chance I get, I play the video games, cosplay, go to conventions, etc. etc. I'm a complete otaku and I'm not afraid to say it. It's fun to delve into another culture and see what makes it tick. Especially when you get to do so through giant fighting robots and magical girls and such.

I wanna say some stuff about my friends! But that'll wait until the next post! The next post will be ALLLLL about my friends :D Cuz they're my life too. Without them, I'd be nothing. NOTHING I TELL YOU.

So I think I've bored you enough with my life. Go read a book or run outside or something else that's productive. Peace.

Quote: "The truck says nu" ~My buddy, Vicki - It's true. The truck says nu. Go look. I'm not lying.

Song: "Child of Anime" by Kylee Henke - Beautiful song. And all about anime. It pretty much describes why people like anime in the first place. Go listen to it. It'll bring some knowledge into your brain.

So I Have This Thing Called a Blog...

..and it's pretty much amazing :D

Hello there. This is my first blog post ever! WEEEEE! I'm kind of excited, because I've wanted to have a blog for a pretty long time, especially since some of my friends have them now. Not that I'm giving into peer pressure or anything; I just think it's cool. And why not, ya know?

I made this blog at this time because I have a lot of issues in my life that I want to talk about, and diaries never seem to last more than a few days. Words come out better through my fingertips than my mouth or a pen. I'm a strong believer in the phrase "The pen is mightier than the sword". Some of the 'issues' that I'm going to bring up have been brought up in the spoken word in my everyday life. However, no one seems to pay attention to my voice. I can articulate my feelings better through writing (I am a communications major after all) and I feel that the pen is mightier (or the keyboard in this situation). Perhaps more people will listen to me and take me seriously if I put my thoughts into a blog. I dunno. I'm hoping.

Anyway, putting the emo-ness aside, greetings and welcome to my adorable blog. It's named "Cupcakes and Lollipops: Sugar for the Curious Mind" because that's basically my personality. Even though I'm 16, about to turn 17, I still have the mind of a child. No, I'm not retarded nor do I have a mental disorder. I'm just extremely innocent. I love sweets and I do have a curious mind, which gets me into trouble sometimes. I'm not saying that I'm completely clueless about the adult world; I'm not stupid. I just choose to distance myself from that side of life. Is it because I'm afraid of growing up? Who knows. That's just who I am, and I don't think that's ever going to change. I'm going to be 37 with 3 kids and a loving husband, and I'll still be the clueless, innocent child that I am now. Well maybe not THAT innocent, considering I'll have kids by then. But you know what I mean.

Even though I am a kid, I have feelings like everyone else. I'm going to be documenting those feelings here, that's what a blog is for, right? Mostly, I'm going to be talking about school and my friends (and the problems within those topics). I don't want to mention names for obvious reasons. Instead, I'm going to replace names with names of foods (particularly fruit). I dunno why, I just thought it was kinda cute. If I'm saying something positive about someone, I'll say their name (unless they want to remain nameless). Other than that, I won't mention anyone's name. You'll know who you are through what I say about you, but other people probably won't. Don't tell me to take down what I say about you. My feelings won't be altered. I can only change your name.

Well, I hope you enjoy your stay at my blog and please keep checking back for updates :) I'm on my computer all the time (maybe a little too much), so there should be plenty of updates for you! Domo arigato gozaimasu! I hope we can get to know each other more <3~

My awesome friend, Lela, ends every post with a quote and a song. Enjoy as I totally do NOT steal her idea :D

Quote: "But we can hope that at least a few folks driving or taking the train across the Manhattan Bridge, living in a downtown apartment, or walking home in the rain looked up at the right time and saw something spectacular" ~ Improv Everywhere - I don't know why, but this quote gave me the chills the first time I read it.

Song: "Marisa Stole the Precious Things" by IOSYS - The most adorable Japanese song ever :D